Last night was freakin’ awesome! I’m glad I’m getting in this kind of things (underground concerts). It’s just unbelievable. When I was in there I could only remember a line from a music I know ‘once she steeped on stage, she never wanted to see the sunlight again’. Damn, so true.
Oh boy, if you knew how much she cries when you are not around. How she gets tense just to see you leaving or how she already misses you even though you are right next to her. You will never understand how much she lost just by standing by your side or how much it hurts for her to know you don’t want her by your side. How she fears loosing you even knowing she doesn’t even (ever) had you. If you knew all the conversations you both had in her head, would had fall in love a thousand times. If you could feel half of the peace she feels when she’s with you, would never leave. You should never leave. Hold me again. Take me back to sleep. Wake me up from this nightmare. Kiss me again. Take me away. Oh boy, oh boy, save my sanity. Save the last piece of me.
I just miss him so much already. We spent the whole day/night together. He even waited with me for my train but when I got in the train and he left, I felt like I was going to die. All I wanted to do was cry. I really care about him, the only thing I feel like doing in my life right now is to be with him. This is making me sick. I want to be with him all the time and I get so depressed when I know I won’t see him… It’s like… We said goodbye 8 hours ago and I’m going crazy because I want to see him right now, and I know I won’t be even seeing him tomorrow, because I don’t have classes. Just for you to understand: when a teacher schedules an extra class and we have to stay in college in our ‘free’ afternoon, I feel like yeeey. Because it means I might see him or even have lunch with him. And it’s stupid because I know he doesn’t feel the same and I know I’m boring to him because I’m never able to say anything right when I’m with him. I just stay there, enjoying his company. I love to hear him talk. I just love to be with him. He’s the coolest person I’ve ever known. God… I’m fucked.
